Well, how are you bloggers?
I'm feeling so blue today.
So pale and there's also a gray frame.
I just feel like there's a deep hole inside this heart.
I don't know, there's always a feeling such as that each time I cry.
Why do I cry?
And why do I have to cry?
Things passing by as time goes, but I don't get better, I guess.
I always think that time will bring me away of this sickness.
But it turns into never.
And become a never ending quest, yet unpredictable .
This month is gonna be a rough month ever.
Terrible trouble, is the keyword.
And I think, I will never get by.
This week, sure is the horrid week.
The second National Exam simulation, or we know it here Try-Out commonly, is being held for 3 days previously before the real National Exam.
Yeah, I know there's nothing special about it.
All you have to know is...
There is bothersome thing surround me.
Last week, I throw some pranks, by uploading my classmate's photos.
I know, that just courting catastrophe.
But all I wanna have is just stuff for... you nail it.
A graduation thing.
We sure were fun at that time by commenting lame words to my friend whose initiated "R".
Yup, she was on the photos I've uploaded.
And, she's just a concrete hypocrite.
Like a fake clergy whose mouth is consist of rotten lies.
You don't have any idea how much I hate her, but you can always keep on guessing what kind of girl she is.
She was so furious and got rage on her own.
Then, she decided to tell her mom about this all.
The same as her daughter, and even more furious I think.
I didn't notice my cell phone that it was ringing, indicate an sms.
Finally, I read the message, and it was extremely surprising!
Shiver, tensed, was two keywords.
The message told me that the sender was actually R's mom!
She said that she just got fed up by us, by our game!
She was in her deepest anger that she wished us to be in jail immediately.
What the?!
Like a curse, flying swiftly through her mouth although I couldn't imagine it.
I could almost sensed the atmosphere of anger and grudge that blended well.
Oh! Came on! That was just about teen's idea of having fun!
But, then it went really wrong by her idea.
And after all, she's just, a pretty old figure, a fuddy-duddy.
She just can interrupt our idea the way it is.
And the worst thing, she goes for unrighteous statement.
Yeah, stale to figure this out.
But it become a sudden case as R's mom put the blame on me and my pal, "Y".
She indicts me and just won't give it up easily even though I've asked an apology.
Two days I live for fear and tremble, suffering terrors, without focusing on the final exam.
She's seemingly aim a prison for scamps like us that she want us so bad to brag this thing there.
Yup, that woman, I mean that pretty old widowed thing, insist me on not being stubborn and just aim for her wishes in order to have her apology.
Insist me to write an apology letter, completely state a regret to R and also other miscellaneous sides that belong to her.
This just far beyond the case.
So, by this story so far, I just wanna have your attention on how can I concern much about this sucking life.
You know that I crave for attention darn bad, don't you?
I just still feel like it is an unexpectedness.
How can a girl like me be in this kind of situation?
Frankly, I'm a fuddy-duddy too, I'm just a girl without guile on being rascal.
And this is just shock the school.
Oh, by the way, I don't hope much on you.
I just want you to pray for me, too break this thing off.
"I'm exhausted of this, but I know that I find a new haven soon."
Until then,
Tessa <3
